Mercy Me

Ok, I am going to start this blog out by saying that the position that I am in is all my fault.  I know that only way for me to stop this pattern is to be like nike and just do it.  But why is that not happening. 

Ok, here goes.  Have you ever been left behind or you were left out of something because you got yourself into trouble and your parents said no, you can’t go because of what you did and now this is your punishment?  That thing that caused so many hurt feelings knowing that you had total control over what you did and you did it anyways and now you are left behind.  Well, as i read everyones blog that is how I feel.  It’s been almost a month now and I have not been able to get back on track like I should.  I have gained my last two weigh ins and I am not committed to anything.  Not my diet or my food.  I know that I have to make my decisions and this is not the first blog I have posted  like this..  Some said you have to just do it, some said you can either be fat or skinny (not those words) and some said oh, you’ll get it together. Well, I haven’t and I feel so left behind.  This is not a depressed state I am in it’s just my true feelings.  So, here goes and I promise to you because any commitments that I make to myself I don’t keep lately.  I am going to limit myself to 1200 calories a day. I am going to exercise 3 time a week.  And I am going to make my husband pick up my FREE bike, and elyptical from my dads that he has had waiting for me for over 2 months.  I am going to west virginia to pick up my son.  My aunt is meeting me in charleston and we’re staying over night.  My son has been in Charlotte for 2 weeks now and I’m ready to get my baby. So there goes in a nutshell, I don’t know if I want comments to this blog but you use your discrestion. (emotions speaking)lol