Mercy Me

I have been missing for the past week. I have been totally out of commission. I have the measles. I know the freakin’ measles. Now I am coming down with a cold of a sudden. I just have no energy. It’s actually 4:00 am in the morning right now. I thought I would post while I was up and about. I will be back soon. Remember, “What you do today may inspire someone tomorrow”.

I am looking for any excuse to not stay on plan. I weighed this morning and I am still down the four pounds from when I weighed earlier this week.  I really have been having some slip ups lately and I have to get back on track. I am going to buy the South Beach book but I am wondering am I using this as an excuse for me to start over on “Monday”. How many monday’s have we had in our lives.  Well, I know why I’ve only lost 10 lbs in 3wks is because I need to control the “urge”.  People call it cravings but I thinks it’s an urge. I am not nescesarily hungry I just have the urge to eat whatever I have to urge for at that time. Ok, well I won’t rant anylonger. Remember, “What you do today may inspire someone tomorrow”.

I’ll make this short. I went to Mcdonalds for the kids and They gave me an extra fresh hot golden fry. I think I could even smell the salt that complimented the potatos. I ordered myself double chs burgs (no bun). All the way home I was reasoning with myself. Self said,”ok, if you get home and have not lost anymore weight you can eat the fries but if you have no fries for you self.”Ok, I know how silly this sounds but this conversation had to have gone on for about 3 minutes or longer. Luckily I started thinking about something else and I was able to tell MYself no fries for you and that was it.  No more battles I just gave the bag to my kids and said here you go. Of course the fries are sitting on the table any other time they would fight over each other fries. Ok no more fry talk. I stuck to plan. I bought turkey jurkey from the turkey deli today and it’s delicious. The scale is playing nice to me but my official weighin day is not until thursday so I’ll report it then. Have a wonderdful day all! Remember,”What you do today will inspire someone tomorrow.”

This weekend has been kind of a trying one. Friday I ordered pizza. I already knew that I would eat it for dinner. It has been almost three weeks on plan so I was not going to torture myself struggling with my cravings. So I ate the pizza with no guilt. Saturday I was back on plan! I had no problems doing the right thing except when 11:00pm came. Oh my goodness there are freakin Mcdonald coupons on the kitchen table and that’s all it took. I was on my way out the door to get that buy one large sandwich get one free. Ok, in that state of mind do you really think I would have only eaten just one sandwich? Think not! All of a sudden I had this severe pain in my stomach I don’t know what it was but I thought I would have to to the ER. Eventually It subsided but that was the end of my Mcdonald’s escapade. No desires what so ever! I of course weighed myself and I have lost another four  pounds. Whooo, I really could have sabotaged my own weight loss. Thank you buddies for all your candid blogs. I get strength from reading about your experiences.

Today was a much better day than the past 2 days. I felt much more productive. I went grocery shopping and and bought some flaxseed meal. I’m going to try the one minute muffins. Wish me luck I have high hopes. Today I weighed in and I lost another pound. I thoght it should be more than that but I really haven’t been counting my carbs just guessing so I will have to do a better job. My scale keeps saying one thing and when I step back on it a 3 pound difference so I guess I need a new one. It’s going on my third week of the atkins and I have not had my desperation moment. I’m trying new foods to substitute what I usually crave so this weeks I hope the one minute muffin is a success. I heard you can use it like crackers, bread, muffins, and many other things. I’m excited. I think I’ll try and egg mcmuffin. UMM!

I don’t know what color it would be but I am in a bad mood. I think it all started when my boss sent a (to me) threatening message to all store managers that if we don’t meet a 3% sales quota we will get written up and lose our bonuses. My position is not commissioned. I was not hired in as a sales person. I am more than willing to move in the direction of the company but he shouldn’t  lead by fear and expect the best from his team. But, anyway I have been in a terrible mood ever since. By the way I sent him a response to his memo and I may have been too harsh. Ok, the important stuff. I have been on plan without cheating once in over two weeks. I have lost atleast I know 11 pounds from my highest weight in history. I am struggling with wanting something to snack on. My husband cooked dinner which always only consist of meat. I don’t think he knows what side dishes are. I have to straighten up because I am an emotional eater and I don’t want to set myself up for failure. I guess I’ll cook broccoli and cheese to go along with his chicken. I’ve read a couple of blogs today and a lot of people are having a hard time right now so just know that you all are in my prayers. Remember, “What you do today may inspire someone tomorrow.”

Well, tomorrow is my two weeks in the induction. I really want to continue in the induction phase but I am scared I can’t committ to that. I have been eating really well except for today. I waited too long to eat and that’s when things can go really wrong. But, I made it. I have eaten too many nuts over the course of the two weeks but I am satisfied that I was able to stick it out. DH is ready to throw in the towel. He suggested that I may want to go buy a slice of pizza. I actually told him no. I use to always want someone to agree with me that if I messed up it was ok. Well, not this time. So he backed off .

Ok, so I just typed this long post that I would not dare take out that much time and thought to post again. There must be a lost and found for all the long lost post in the buddy slim kindom. Well, I have stuck to my plan I will have completed my induction as of tomorrow. I hope everyone is well and Remember,”What you do today may inspire someone tomorrow”.

Ok, so today is Saturday. I don’t have any thoughts of temptation so far although it is only 12:00 PM. Of course I just can’t stop getting on the scale so I don’t know if that’s bad or not. I only count thursdays as my official weight. I have dropped a couple of more pounds that can fluctuate between now and thursday. I am going to cook breakfast for my family. So I hope every has a wonderful Saturday. The sun is shining here. YEA! We have been getting snow every other day, so the sun is awesome. Remember,”What you do today may inspire someone tomorrow.”