WARNING!!! HIGH EMOTIONS!
Ok, I am going to start this blog out by saying that the position that I am in is all my fault. I know that only way for me to stop this pattern is to be like nike and just do it. But why is that not happening.
rn
Ok, here goes. Have you ever been left behind or you were left out of something because you got yourself into trouble and your parents said no, you can’t go because of what you did and now this is your punishment? That thing that caused so many hurt feelings knowing that you had total control over what you did and you did it anyways and now you are left behind. Well, as i read everyones blog that is how I feel. It’s been almost a month now and I have not been able to get back on track like I should. I have gained my last two weigh ins and I am not committed to anything. Not my diet or my food. I know that I have to make my decisions and this is not the first blog I have posted like this.. Some said you have to just do it, some said you can either be fat or skinny (not those words) and some said oh, you’ll get it together. Well, I haven’t and I feel so left behind. This is not a depressed state I am in it’s just my true feelings. So, here goes and I promise to you because any commitments that I make to myself I don’t keep lately. I am going to limit myself to 1200 calories a day. I am going to exercise 3 time a week. And I am going to make my husband pick up my FREE bike, and elyptical from my dads that he has had waiting for me for over 2 months. I am going to west virginia to pick up my son. My aunt is meeting me in charleston and we’re staying over night. My son has been in Charlotte for 2 weeks now and I’m ready to get my baby. So there goes in a nutshell, I don’t know if I want comments to this blog but you use your discrestion. (emotions speaking)lol
rn
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Tanae,
I think this is a first for me, but DAMN that is messed up that I have been messing up this bad for Someone to tell me that I need to take a month off.
Well like you said…in my blog..that makes 2 of us.
Tanae,
Ok.
Hi Tanae, I know you said you didn’t know if you wanted anyone to comment on this particular blog but,…I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone…I know exactly how you feel…about your weight situation…b/c I’ve been where you are..In the past I would
i know exactly how you feel and i don’t know what to say except that you should meditate on your situation. get yourself alone in a dark space for however long it takes and just ask yourself what’s going on and why are things not happening the way they should. it’s amazing how when the dust settles, and it’s peaceful and quiet how your body will talk to you and tell you everything you want to know and more. this has helped me on several occasions. you’ll know when the answer comes and what you need to do because sudden peace will come over you. you won’t bother to worry about anything because you know it will all work out. it’s like reaching enlightenment. that’s how i feel now. i’m in peace and i’ve never been happier in my life. my body and i have stopped fighting, and we are working together to make a better, healthier, happier me. your body wants that for you to. may you overcome every obstacle in your way. mental,emotional and physical. i wish you luck.
Tanae
I have a friend in from Arizona and we were discussing life. and we
have decideded Life is Messy! I have also struggled lately with
personal marital life and some days thought - screw it I am not going
to worry about my weight any more - who cares - it won’t make a
difference (yes … Char who has been so OP thinks this way) But maybe
it is my age 46 and I know I don’t have to many kicks at the cat left.I
have to do this for me this time. I have over the years thrown in the
towel thinking I am not worth the effort. But you are worth it! Tanae.
I read between your lines and see you are just like every other mom out
there. We don’t put us first. You are soooo important and so worth it.
Think long term. Life long. for your children. I hope your hubby picks
up those bike & ex machine for you . You are worth it.
Hi Tanae, it’s never a straight line (getting to your goals), but it does require you to be (brutally) honest with yourself and be willing to change.
The old asian definition of insanity is “Doing the same thing over & over again but expecting different results”.
We’re all guilty of this kind of behavior.
Don’t beat yourself up over it, but do be honest & be willing to change.