Mercy Me

Hi all, I know I have been hitting and missing for quite a while now.  Well, for those who have kept up with me you know that I always had a hard time remembering to weigh in even if I knew I was going to show a weight loss.  The important things to me were if I stayed on track and if I exercised or not because I knew that pounds would have no choice but to hit the road.  Well, now it’s a different story.  I am scared to see what the scale is going to show.  I am going to weigh in tomorrow and share it no matter what it says. You know that honesty has always been my policy.  Good and the bad.  So there goes I am anxiously awaiting the scale tomorrow.  Good night all.

ok, I have a lot of things going on right now.  I took my son to charlotte, NC friday.  We got back late monday night. My aunts mouse didn’t work so I couldn’t really get on bs.  So the last day we were t here we got news that my husbands sister passed.  From his father that he didn’t meet until he was 18.  Well guess how we found out about that.  His aunt read it in the obits.  There his name was listed as a sibling but noone bothered to call him and let him know.  She was only 26 years old with 4 children,  So that’s the big stuff It’s too much to type about all the other small things t hat  went on but believe me I was ready to come home. All together there were 11 people staying  in one little house.  I love visiting my aunt but this was the first time I was ready to go.  So now, everything is getting back to normal I am on my way to work.  I sometimes get terrible muscle spasms in my back I think the long ride brought it on so I took a muscle relaxer yesterday I slept from 6 pm until 8 am. I don’t know if I feel better but my hand is going numb as  I am typing so I guess I better get ready for work. Thanks Bernice for that message on my page.  I really needed that. 

Ok, well let me start out by saying thanks AGAIN for being committed to this site everyone.  Ok, so here goes.  Last night I watched that show that I talked about in my last blog.  Well, it really got me to thinking about my body and what I was doing to it.  Well, I was checking up on my dear buddy Jo and sent her a heart felt message about how I was concerned about her and I confessed that I didn’t start back to the program on monday like I wanted to and I felt like I had quit.  Well, I never lied to you guys but I was able to skirt around the food issues.  Well guess what,  Dear Jo blirted it out that I was on the verge of quitting!  When I read it I squilled Jo!  I thought ok, I am going to delete this comment so noone else seen I has virtually quit.  So, I sat back and thought about it.  Well this morning while lying in bed before I got on the computer I was thinking what healthy dinner I could cook and I felt like I wanted to go exercise but of course that feeling subsided as quickly as it came.  But when I seen that Jo busted me out I knew what I had to do.  I had to do the extreme I called the gym I have a lifetime membership to and got all the schedules.  I am going  to exercise today and I’m re-committing myself to you guys.  Right now I can’t hold myself accountable so I’ll look to answer to you for everything I do.  THANKS JO!  YOU REALLY SAVED ME.  Well,  I am going to do my tape.  I hope it’s not too much dust on it.

Has anyone seen this show before.  It’s where a medical examiner performs autopsies on questionable or unanswered deaths.  Well tonight they profiled several young people which happened to be both black.  Well, while examining the bodies each persons heart was extremely large.  They both were obese which of course I am that.  I watched closely and it was a wake up call to the damage that I am doing to my body.  I am scared of what I may have already done but I have a chance to  prevent further damage.  I have thought about the food I’ve eaten just today and it’s enough to kill over and die if I continue this lifestyle.  I thank God for all of you buddies out there for your inspiration to continue on this sight even if I haven’t been on program.  Thank you for your encouragment and true words.  Of course I have been focusing on just the weight issue but what good is it going to do to have a beautiful body that’s ruined on the inside.  Well, just a little food for thought (no pun intended) it wasn’t their heart that killed them even though both of their hearts were over 2 times the normal size it was other weight realted issues.  All preventable.  “Remember, what you do today will inspire someone tomorrow”

It is soooo hot here in michigan.  I can’t believe the weather here.  I came home on my luch to clean the kitchen and fix a lunch me and ds, and dh. dd is gone to hilton head for the week and we’ll e meeting up with them in Charlotte.  I can’t wait.  This is the first road trip of the year.  I love traveling through the mountains.  We are going to take ds to Charlotte for 3 weeks and drive back to pick him up.  I didn’t get to fix lunch but when I came home I was able to clean the kitchen and scrub my floor on my hands and knees.  I know that was a work out.  Boy oh boy was I tired.  My knees are not use to me being on them. LOL  Well, It’s time for me to go.  I did do well getting in 8-10 hours of sleep last week.  I am usually up until 2am and it’s now 1am so I am only down to 7.  That’s how i lose so much sleep.  All night as the hours go by I count down how many hours I have sleep.  And usually that gets down to about 51/2 to six.  So good night all.

Well, guys I forgot where the 1 ound loss could’ve come from.  I joined Bernice’s challenge of getting 8-10 hours of sleep a day and I did it.  Well, I lost a pound.  Sorry Bernice I was not disreguarding the sleep challenge it really slipped my mind.  I am definitely going to do it another week and will encourage everyone to join.  I usually only get maybe 5-6 hours a night and boy oh boy did I feel much better waking up every morining.  So thanks Bernice.rn

Ok here goes, I lost one pound.  How in the world did that happen.  I promise I don’t know magic!  I weighed in like I said and one pound was gone.  I got on the scale and got off again and even put on my glasses just knowing that it was off but nope it was right on.  I am suprised I lost a pound.  I never gain anything back while doing the atkins usually until close to a year later. But losing a pound I don’t know.  I have been a human garbage disposal lately so who knows maybe the weight gain I reported was wrong but who cares a pound is a pound and I have many more where that came from.  Maybe in my sleep I should try to say abracadabra.  Just kiddin! 

I want to thank all of you who responded so openly.  I would never get upset with what you guys have to say.  I totally understand aboout the monday thing.  Actually when I got started I started on a wed because my mom use to start a diet every monday.  I know I’m using it as an excuse so what I will do is try to have a better day tomorrow.  I want to really thank everyone because like Jo said right now I can’t do this for myself I am doing it because I want to be right there with all of you guys being happy about the things you ate for the day or what exercise you did.  I have to make a change and quick.  Thursdays are my weighin day so since I didn’t weigh in I’ll weigh in tomorrow and post the results no matter what they are.  So I want all of you to know I truely took everyt hing you said to heart and I am going to make it.  I”m sorry if I offended anyone by calling myslef the 4th little   I guess that wasn’t as funny as I thought it was.  I always and will continue to always express my true feelings  and I  will always incorporate a little humor also, so that just the way I express myself. 

Did you know there was a fourth little pig.  Her name was TANAE.  I have been pigging out!  I know no one really can respond to this type of blog because what can you really say except stop being a pig!   I know that but I am in a rut and it started a while ago.  I hope monday is the turn around day for me.  Well, I just had to confess this because this is part of my mental preparation for monday.

Ok, so I’m trying to prepare myself mentally to get back on track.  I really couldn’t afford to miss all that time away from you guys.  Thank God I have my new service and I am logging and blogging everyday.  Monday is the day.  I have time to re-stock all the things that I need to get going.  I am going to have to really stay focused on my goals and what it is I’m trying to achieve.  I have to read all of your blogs because I don’t want to be left begind saying oh I wonder how much weight I would’ve lost if I wouldn’t have quit.  I want to say oh just imagine how much I would still weigh if I wouldn’t have kept going.  So I guess that’s enough for one day. I haven’t seen too many people blog yet.  I know I’m 3 hours ahead.